Confusion strikes me so hard.....

Humans will experience a lot of things. In other words, almost everything will be experienced by human being. Love? Happiness? Sadness? Death? and some other emotions. Recently, i am stroked hard by confusion. It affects me so much. It causes me moody, not happy as before and maybe think a lot further and out of the box. I don't know exactly what is happening around me and what to do to solved it. I don't even know what reason or reasons that lead to my confusion. The only thing i know is only- confuse.. confuse... confuse.. and again, confuse.... Most of the time, i am trying to accommodate with others about anything. Am i doing the right stuff? Are my choice or decision correct? Conflicts happened again and again within myself. I am facing mental struggle, and perhaps struggle for freedom? confuse.... I think i must train myself and make myself be more assertive and firm in my decision. Learn to say NO!! i have 5 years time to prove it to myself that i can do it~ No worries~ ^v^

Wishes: May God bless all of us and lead us to correct path~

A moment to a new hope~

Suddenly, I realized that friends mean a lot to me. But i hardly to describe the feeling. I just feel like so free and natural as well as no worries when i mixed with them. Even though they din mention or say anything special to me, but i gain motivation from them. That lead me to a new hope everyday. Thanks God, because of the new hope, because of my family and because of all the people surround me, i feel glad that I OWN you all. ^v^

~Life in a cruel world~

Life,

Full of occurances,

Full of obstacles,

Full of evils,

And full of everything.

I wonder I can manage to handle all this difficult stuff along my way to the peak of the "mountain". I doubt in myself. I am bothered by everything. JUST anything and everything.. *money, *friendship, *family and etc. And maybe motorcycle license. It's so hard for me to live independent without rely on others. Sometimes, I keep on thinking the ways to improve myself. The ways that i can do. But seems like I can't do anything to beat the "bad" feeling inside me.. And it's better to let time to dilute everything bad inside me. God, please give me strength to do so......